Eyes wide open.
Trying not to blink too long.
When my eyes close too long I see his little body slowly losing its warmth in that hospital room.
In my heart I cry out, "God please take this!"
In my mind I scream, "Sanctuary! God please sanctuary!"
I think of Mamas in my group who had to identify their little ones
and my heart breaks under the strain.
God give them sanctuary somewhere inside.
I have always loved the idea of a sanctuary. People crowding into a holy place crying, "Sanctuary! Sanctuary!" And being relieved of the terror of physical violence. But if there is one thing death has taught me it is that there is no physically safe place. Each of us is more fragile than we know. Physically. Spiritually.
Refugees cross oceans, blacks and whites change neighborhoods and schools, cops change jobs, military personnel seek treatment. People die in churches, malls, schools...Truly there is no safe place. My body can't find sanctuary.
Refugees cross oceans, blacks and whites change neighborhoods and schools, cops change jobs, military personnel seek treatment. People die in churches, malls, schools...Truly there is no safe place. My body can't find sanctuary.
Yesterday well before my two a.m. episode I heard/watched a song that for some reason brought to mind seeking a spiritual sanctuary. I have come so close to spiritually breaking and at times have held on only with Simon Peter's question "Lord unto whom would I go?" He is the only one with the words of life. And so I stay and I hold on and now understanding how spiritually fragile we all are I pray to be led to a place where we'll be (spiritually) safe.
May you find the only sanctuary that there is in this world.
I hope you take your family there and your neighbors.
This season is truly a safe place for my soul.
God give us faith so we'll be safe.
Here's the link and some of the lyrics:
The Prayer with David Archuleta and Nathan Pacheco
Here's the link and some of the lyrics:
The Prayer with David Archuleta and Nathan Pacheco
I pray you'll be our eyes
and watch us where we go
and help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
when we lose our way
Lead us to a place
guide us with your Grace
to a place where we'll be safe
I pray we'll find your light
and hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
guide us with your Grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
and watch us where we go
and help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
when we lose our way
Lead us to a place
guide us with your Grace
to a place where we'll be safe
I pray we'll find your light
and hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
guide us with your Grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
